Jealousy or possessiveness ?...

I have always found myself feeling jealous for almost all reasons and for the most part the reasons would definitely be silly....[:D]
As a child,I used 2 feel jealous of people having something that i dont have and i always craved for having it... That period of time passed away in no time and i grew up.... As children we all feel jealous of what others have which we obviously do not....[:)]
Never knew growin up would be so difficult... I met people,made new friends and learnt to live life the easy way...All was well... Suddenly people became close,they became special to me...They entered my life and made a difference to me and to my life...I made a comfort zone around myself...I lived for the ones whom i considered special....I lived for the ones whom i loved[:)]....Thats where the feelings of jealousy striked again....I dint want to share my loved ones with anyone and especially not atleast with the people i despised... The truth is always bitter and it was like a sudden bolt....The "Miss J" thingy always made me brood over it.... And it was of late that i realised every human has a small jealousy factor in him somewhere.....
And yes i would feel jealous when it comes to sharing my loved ones...Be it a one-line conversation or a simple hello....Ahhh that would make me shoot the intruder.....[;)] Intruder as in-k human,get a life,the person ur trying 2 get acquainted with is mine....hee hee hee [;))] And which brought with it the realisation that life is not easy...Its tough.... Its hard.... So let be....How would it be to take the road less travelled? I solemnly believe in the fact that never let people know that you love them and if you let them know dont regret because if you regret then you apologise for saying the truth.....[;)]

Blogging World,,,,,

Audacious or Au fait ?
Convinced or Construed ?
Emendatory or emotive?
Call it anything but ur blog describes you! Primarily U.....[;)]
For the most part my post revolves around blogging....
It would be just a leap in the dark if you attempt to write....[:)]
All you need is to be straight forward..Come on people,dont be afraid of calling a spade a spade..[;)]
Did someone read the article in The TOI few days back which describes Aamir Khan's persona to be a secluded person? And those who have read,definitely know that he connects through millions of people through his blogs...What a way to connect with people.....!!
I myself made two blogger accounts and here with the final one....[:D]
Its no child's play but with interest you can even dash off pages in two mins....!! [;)]
The devil-may-care sort can start writing away,eh....Works as a perfect global environment for all you shy souls out there....
Come on in,write what all you can and you always have the advantage of letting your identity stay anonymous,rt? [;)]
Its a stress buster too...! When stressed out,life has beaten the hell out of u,just try to reveal your thoughts on paper and Lo! your post is ready...
Updation of ur blog at regular intervals is still a moot question though......[:)]
The blogging world appears to be a royal world-no difficulties.....
Being passionate in whatever you do would be the best help you can provide yourself with...
Look at me,i have a passionate ardour for everything....LOL....!!
Writing means taking out some rich,deep,thick n velvety duration of time which thrives on rhythm and leaves you soulful and happy!
After all,true happiness is what everyone wants.....[:)]

Thinkin? Huh....!!

Ever wondered over the fact why rich people are depressed? Why,u thought only the poor feel miserable eh? Ha,there you go wrong..Because it is common sense to understand that the poor are miserable but even the well-heeled are depressed..! Lets think of an answer..Can u think of something? Well a/c 2 me the only evident answer is DESIRE FOR MORE..!! Dont u think everything falls in place after seeing that answer?
Desire For More-Yes,that is the answer... No second thoughts on that...!
Can anyone ever have enough of anything? Look at me,putting on oodles of kilos but can never have enough of ice-cream..Ah,ice-cream...!! [:)]
Life is generally divided into 3 parts..
The PAST - which is no longer there....
The PRESENT - which we ruin by thinking of the future
&
The FUTURE - of which no one is sure of...!!
Come to think of it,its only the present that we have with us which is completely in our hands and we decide how to make the most of it...Lets enjoy it completely,live life as though its the last best thing..[;)]
Thinking, grieving, sulking, worrying would do you no good..!! I strongly believe in the fact that THINKING is unreal,now thats what i call a bald statement...[:)]

Guilt Pangs...

I dont know whether its a misconception or not but its always noticed that women harbour feelings of guilt !! Consider me,why do i feel that im responsible for everything to be right?(also for everything to be wrong).Like all emotions associated with women-GUILT is the one constant emotion.Be it your professional life or be it personal compromise-u cant escape its pointed jibes!! Every woman feels guilty at times.Be it a daughter,a mother,a lover,a worker-EVERY ONE..!!
Come to think of myself I seriously sometimes brood-what good have i been at? NOTHING? Yeh,u guessed it right..[:D] I have been a guilty daughter-never tried to understand my parents and my responsibilities of being the eldest! I have been a guilty lover-maybe im responsible for failing relationships! I cannot compromise on my expectations from my partner,expectations hurt-i know they do,ive already written a post on that.Somehow i think that your individual success depends on external factors like successful relationships..!! I have been a guilty friend-dint think how important it was to show love and concern for ur best friend,thought she would foresee my feelings for her! Huh,how wrong i was..!! I have been a guilty student?(I know all of us are)-I tend to loose track of what im studying and how am i supposed to prove my worth bein an above-avg student..!
GUILTY-GUILTY-GUILTY-thats what the judge's verdict is! I know there are so many things which i cannot do and i say so! Think of it the positive way-If you have made a choice,there is no point feeling guilty about it.If you are committed to what you are doing then guilt should have no place in your life..!!
Come on ya-Im no SuperWoman,,! Cant really manage everything without going wrong! Making a pact with guilt seems to be the solution here. In the end i must say that relationships and guilt go hand in hand

Xpectations...

Expectations hurt-Yes,they do ! The most common phenomenon is that when one loves one expects.Giving love leaves us with a purely human need to receive something in return. Expectations. What do we ultimately have when we have expectations? We just take ourselves for granted and live in the constant fear that this is all that i can give,You start feeling that something you are giving has no value.
How many expectations do we have once we offer love? As humans we can become upset,angry,confused,resentful,frustrated and the list of emotions will be endless but do we stop expecting? We create our own reality so why does the word expectation still linger? The state of acceptance is the only state that tells you that things will happen only according to what HE wants.We are often yoo busy dwelling on the negative aspects while disregarding the positive.Who are we to judge the decisions taken by HIM million years ago? Sounds like a never ending debate but yes that is what the question will remain-What is a person supposed to do when he expects? Leave everything to HIM & pray OR continue expecting???